Just thoughts...

My last post was very moving for me, not in an emotional way but more in a motivational way. After I wrote all those things that I had confessed about myself, I decided to do something that made me feel good about myself. I asked Jared if I could start taking voice lessons again. I haven't sung since before high school. I really missed it and I didn't realize it until I wrote my last post. Also, I was watching this new show Glee. There is a character in the show that reminds me of myself. Her spirit and love for music. She reminds me so much of how I felt when I was singing. So I decided to pick it up again.

PS. Just to add a disclaimer, I only really watch the musical scenes. The show has a few plots that are not very good so if you decided to watch, please do not think that I support all views in the show.

Anyway. Jared is still job hunting. The construction world is going through a little bit of a dip. ABC said that the industry is on a 17% low. But the thing that I have learned about Heavenly Father is that he doesn't care about highs and lows. Miracles happen everyday. I know that Jared will find something. Things will happen. Eventually. At least we both have jobs right now. He just wants a career to build on. Which is understandable when you graduate.

We have both been in a little bit of a funk lately because this is the week that we would be delivering our twins had I carried full term. We are still tender about it but it helps to know that we have each other. He has been such a great friend to me. I feel so lucky that he is mine forever. He was worth the wait.

Confessions

I had a very interesting awakening today at work. I have decided that I hide who I really am too much. I really don't have the guts to show people who I really am because I am afraid that people will not like what they learn. I really shouldn't care what people think, right. Easier said than done. I want to at least feel proud to embrace my "dorkiness" and be proud of it. Just a few confessions. Ok, here we go: (I'm actually shaking a little.)

1. When I work out or when I really need an energy boost, I listen to Britney Spears. She really pumps me up and I really love a good beat. As a matter of fact, I will listen to anything with a good beat. As long as I can sing along.

2. I have rod iron and vinyl on my walls. I have had rod iron and vinyl lettering on my walls since I was married. I am not ashamed because I really liked these elements before they became popular in South East Idaho and everywhere else. Styles change and so do people.

3. I love to look at scrapbooking paper. I would be happy for the rest of my life designing paper. I am not a scrapbooker but I can appreciate the creativity of paper design.

4. I love to design wedding invitations. I got a lot of crap from designers in my program who didn't think it was good enough to design wedding invitations. That my degree spoke higher of it. Well, I've got something to say...I don't care anymore. I really love to see two people come together and if I can capture their personal style in 5x7 piece of paper, I am good.

5. I have to exercise when I get home everyday. If I don't, then I feel like I can't function. It has to be done. I had a crazy week last week and was not able to work out at all. Needless to say, I was a little agitated. (Tonight, I ran two miles on a treadmill, two miles, 415 calories, bliss).

6. I wear open toed shoes all year round. Oh, and none of them are without heels. (I live in Idaho. I can't get the California out of me.)

7. I love Elton John! Love Love Love his music. If I hear people bashing him because of his music or his sexuality, I have no problem telling them to shut it. I have listened to him since I was five. My dad and I have made some great memories listening to his music. He took me to an Elton John Billy Joel concert when I was twelve. I will never forget it and that is one of the best memories that I have with my dad. But the greatest is when we would be driving around and listening to it in the car.

8. I love to sing. I never sing in public though. There are only a few people who read this who know that I love to sing. I can think of perhaps...three. I wanted to be on Broadway when I was younger and for that matter, I still do. If I ever get the chance, I will take it.

9. Politically, I am a nothing. Really, I could found the nothing party. I consider myself an Opinionated Observer. I like to watch partisan folks talk out their differences. Well, on the House floor, I guess that would not be talk, more like yell. I enjoy listening to Talk Radio. I really love to listen to Glenn Beck. I enjoy his point of view and he makes me laugh.

10. I never know what to say. I always loose my words when I want to say something. This drives me crazy but it's who I am. It's not like I'm Dorie from Finding Nemo but I just have a hard time formulating my thoughts into words. I clam up and then my brain shuts off.

I need to not be ashamed that I like what I like. I heard recently that you need to be true to who you are. I am trying to take that first step. My husband is the person that I really look up to because he really doesn't care what people think of him. He is comfortable with himself and that makes people comfortable with him. I am a little too self conscious.

This is going to be my goal. Just to be cozy in my own skin. Just love what I am. I encourage all of you to make a list of things that you are trying to hide from people because you are afraid of what they will think. Not confessions like, you killed someone in a witch burning reenactment. Save those for court. But really find things that you are kind of embarrassed about. Like my Brit Spears thing. I still can't believe that I confessed that, but it feels better knowing that I don't have to feel so ashamed. It's just who I am. Sorry mom. And though my things are silly, I was able to really feel better about myself knowing that that is just who I am. Hey it would even be fun to get a confessions list in the comments!

Something I need to be better at...Just Stop

Jared is always telling me that I need to be kinder to myself. There are things that I can't change and there are things that I can. Learning that you need to be comfortable with yourself is the greatest realization. Oh, PS, This is the great Chalene Johnson who is the founder of Turbo Jam, my fav workout. She is phenomenal! Love her, love her. Hope to find more of her stuff.

Hair Things and Farmers Market

So the Labor Day weekend is finally here. Jared has been pulling 10.5 days all this week. He has been super super busy. We have been running around all over the place for the past few weeks, we decided that it was time for us to have a weekend to relax. Jared went to work this morning and I got up to clean the house and work out.

I also decided to make some new hair accessories to go with my new hair cut, (not really new, about two weeks.) I have been trying to find new things to do with it. I could start another blog with all the things I have been trying to do to my hair. I just want to feel comfortable in my own head. Ha ha. That sounds like a psycho person. I went to Roberts and picked up a few of my favorite faux flowers to make cute clips. Way fun. I had to get ready so I could see how they looked.

Jared called me up when he was done with work and we went to one of the three Farmer's Markets here in Ammon. We bought some of the most beautiful tomatoes and peppers. I had to make Pico de Gallo. Yumm. Jared wanted to make his favorite thing. Malad. It's a man salad. He he. It was beautiful. Spinach, apples. chunks of cheese, purple onions, chicken and tomatoes. I was so proud. We had this for lunch. Our friends Brett and Savannah are coming up for Labor Day so we had to get food for all of us. We hope to go to the Fair on Monday. We will see. Here's to good times!

Nothing to Write About...

I don't know if this really shows a lack of creativity, but since this is a personal blog, I have noticed that if you don't have kids, your life can be pretty dry of daily happenings. I need to get better at noticing the daily things that I have been given. I heard that Oprah has a "Gratittude Journal" that she uses to write down things that she is grateful for. I think that I am going to try that. Let's see, something that I am grateful for...that's easy, the greatest thing that every happened to me. This guy right here:

He is the most wonderful guy in the world. He is always making me look at myself in a different light. You know those days when you just feel like you are not even remotely attractive, he will just look at me and say, "You are so beautiful! I'm sorry if I haven't told you that today but you are just so beautiful to me." Uhhh...speechless and I think that my heart just melted. He is always doing wonderful things for me. Vacuuming, doing the dishes, or just knowing when I need a hug. I thank the Lord every night that I have him in my life. I had to go through some real toads until I found him. He was so patient and kind to me. It feels good to know that God saved someone so wonderful for me.

Saturday in Yellowstone

After living in Idaho for about eight years (good grief has it been that long!) I finally made it to Yellowstone National Park. It was truly a great place to see. We also decided to take Jared's cousins, Jordyn and Kaleb. They had a lot of fun and were such good sports for being in the car for so long.

We saw soo many buffalo. I was really shocked to see so many people out of their cars taking pictures of them. Especially since some woman got gored by one this year. Crazy people.

Kaleb and Jordyn were not loving the hot pots with their rotten egg smell and hot air.

Jared and I were having fun pushing them in the stroller and have people ask us about our "kids." We had a good time.

Jordyn enjoying her lunch

Old Faithful I guess is not that faithful anymore. It used to go off every hour on the hour, but it has become lax in the last few years. I guess it has the experts a little worried.

Yeah, I didn't get to take a shower that day. I look bee-u-teeful!

Fun day. We had a good time!

PLEASE WATCH!

Folks, Glenn Beck is doing a ground breaking broadcast on his show tonight. If you can't see it, Tivo it! I don't have a TV, I am going to watch it on FoxNews.com. Please educate yourselves on who is advising our President. His advisors are avowed Socialists and Marxists. Please watch tonight, tomorrow and Friday! I am going to be posting on my political opinion blog justsomegirlsrant.blogspot.com the clips from Fox. Please don't let this go by!